Anxiety swept over me as I hit, “install” on my phone to download the popular dating app, Bumble. What was I doing? How did I get here? “I will NEVER do online dating!” A sentence I said over and over to my girlfriends who constantly encouraged me to put myself out there and start dating again.
At the time, I was a mother to a 9-year-old, recently divorced, and married to my business. Traveling for work and personal reasons was a frequent occurrence. I couldn’t imagine any man wanting to load all this baggage into the trunk of his car and drive off into the sunset. Mind you, I hadn’t even been on a date in over 15 years. I felt like the crypt walker when it came to dating. Like, how do you even do it?
Sitting at the bar, sipping a dirty martini while some guy stumbles over asking to take me home for a nightcap was not my idea of a first encounter. Over time, just like any woman, I started to get lonely. What woman doesn’t like the company of a man cuddled up on the couch watching the latest Netflix original movie? Even a casual night out enjoying delicious food and deep belly laughs. I was missing it and deep down I desired it. It wasn’t long before I strapped on my wings and buzzed right into the beehive. Bumble, that is.
Left swipe after left swipe, I continued to pass up what seemed to have been the bottom of the barrel. One man after another flashed across my screen. These are my potential suitors? Is this a joke? As I was about to shut it down and delete the app for good, Mr. Handsome came across my screen. Well well well, who is this? Mesmerized by his photos and his directly written profile. I like direct, this is totally me! I did the unthinkable. I swiped right. The knot in my throat grew larger by the passing seconds. There was no way to undo what I just did and I damn near had a panic attack.
Now I have to wait? What is this crap? The dark cloud of anxiety crept over me. It was like the same anxious feeling you feel, waiting to see how many lines will display on a pregnancy test you just peed on. Ugh, I couldn’t handle it. But then, the next day a notification came through. We matched!
Casual conversation through messaging continued over the next few days and shortly after, we went on our first date. It may have been your typical dinner and a movie, but Christopher Moss swept me off my feet as he ended the night taking me to a karaoke bar and serenading me with a country love song. This boy could sing! A southern boy from Louisiana just turned this northern city girls heart into complete mush. Dinner dates turned into day dates. Day dates turned into multiple days spent enjoying each others company and I was quickly falling head over heels for a man I just met.
5 months later, Christopher asked if I would like to get away and go on a vacation to Cancun, Mexico, dip our toes in the sand and spend some quality time together. Um, yes, please! Who doesn’t love the beach? We ended up packing our bags and heading off to Mexico just a couple weeks later. Never in a million years did I expect what happened next.
Standing on a pier overlooking the ocean, my southern gentlemen got down on one knee and asked me if I would spend the rest of my life with him. Actually, if you want to know the truth...As he struggled to get down on one knee, I asked him, “What are you doing?” His response, “You know what I’m doing!” I couldn’t help but laugh and cry at the same time. As he knelt there staring back up at me, asking to spend the rest of my life with him, I couldn’t say anything else but, “YES!”
What the hell just happened? I’m engaged? Who would have thought an app with a simple swipe to the right just 5 months before would have brought me right to this moment? I was the happiest I had ever been to. What I forgot to mention was how I prayed for this exact man just 6 months before, literally. This still blows my mind.
We had no intentions of rushing into a wedding because everything seemed to be moving pretty quickly, even for us. As time continued moving forward, our relationship grew stronger and stronger and our one year anniversary was soon approaching. We had discussed our wedding and thrown many ideas around; destination wedding, eloping, a small country wedding, a big celebration, all of it. I honestly didn’t care what we did, I just wanted to be with the man I had prayed for my entire life. Then one day, both of us were casually talking about how our one year anniversary was just a month away and what we could possibly do to celebrate. At almost the exact same time we both said, “let’s get married!”. If anyone knows both Christopher and me, then you know we’re both impulsive.
“Let’s get married in Louisiana!” we both said, again at the exact same time. A small intimate country wedding. It is exactly what we wanted. It was us!
4 weeks later, in a flowy white gown holding my mom’s arm, I walked towards the front porch of his aunt's country cabin and took Christopher’s hand. Standing before him I saw my entire future. A life with my best friend. A man perfectly designed for me. We exchanged our vows on October 8th, 2018, our one year anniversary. A day that made an imprint on my heart one year before when I said “yes” to date exclusively had now become a day that will forever leave an imprint until the end of time, as I said “yes” to spending eternity.
Never did I believe love like this existed. I honestly didn’t realize what “true love” was until Chris walked into my life 17 months ago. To think it was an online app that brought us together. Something I never thought I would entertain in a million years. Well, it happened and it does exist. Love at first swipe, that is.